I didn't realize it until going back through grandoggie pictures...Pac has been
an exhibitionist since he was a pup! Seriously!!
Is it because his Dad held him like this from the time he was a little 25 pounder?
To now when he is a whopping 75 LBS?
He goes from, "Hey look at me flex these BUNS!" to...
"I'm too sexy for this couch."
"Too sexy for this bed."
"Too sexy to be a dog, oh ya ya."
What makes some species so free and comfortable with who they are, where they are, and what they are? And what makes them so innately in tune with unabashed love?
Is it nature? Is it nurture? Or is it both?
What ever Pac has, where ever he got it, i know one thing...he's happy and he's got the life!
Through the years of raising three boys, three sports crazy boys i have watched or listened as it may have been, many many and then many more games of all kinds. Today is one of those days, football on the flat screen, kids kicked back on the couch, and me equipped with lap top...just in case i get bored?
The 49er's are going to the super bowl; the game now playing, the Ravens and Patriots are playing to see who will be their opponents. The national anthem is sung and Chase begins schooling me 'the mom" about the players, the NFL and Ray Lewis, the driving force behind the Ravens success and pride. Chase's hopes that Baltimore wins the super bowl this year. I do too.
I am touched. I watch this mean S.O.B., Ray Lewis show raw tender emotion as the national anthem finishes. And they say tough men shouldn't cry? Whatev! And ya, i know Lewis plays defense, but what better offense than a tough defense!
As i write this blog i have no idea what the outcome of this game will be, what i appreciate is the sheer enthusiasm and passion of the players and the fans. But one sure thing is one side has to lose. That's how it works in sports.
I appreciate, no not just appreciate i honor those who are dedicated to what they love to the point that they will take a beating, face disappointment, face possible humiliation and be pretty certain they will leave the field hurting if they stay in the game to the finish. Those are the winners, win or lose, they can hold their heads high no matter what! They played their heart out, played fair and gave everything they had for the team and can lay their heads down at night clear of conscience and sleep even though they hurt!
I've played a few games too and i played to the finish line. I'm happy about that and sleeping with ice bags or heating pads help the aches and pains guys...give it a try!
Whether you are new to reading wildflowersandweeds, check intermittently or a follower the journey and emotion is real and true.
Getting to an authentic self has been quite a journey and i have openly shared raw emotion often, for my benefit yes, but mostly because when i hurt i isolate myself, writing has been a release. By nature i am extremely open, by environment i am extremely closed. And we take the journey happily, and sometimes in the depths of despair.
My son Tandin and i have been on a road together these past few years. This road has been filled with strain, misunderstanding, fear, abundant love, concern, faith and no judgment. We build barriers with our kids unknowingly and then we break through. Part of this is growing up, the other is learning... on both sides. They are learning how to be a kid while we are learning how to parent, in a way that allows each of us to be human, i.e. living through life's lessons.
A few days ago i received a private message via facebook from Tandin with just a YouTube video attached. I watched it 3 consecutive times each time, the sobbing tears lessened, each time absorbing it from a different point of view: self, Tandin, then humanity. i invite you to watch and pay attention to the story.
"Little Wonders"
Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in,
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain
Let it slide,
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine
Until you feel it all around you
And i don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by,
It's the heart that really matters in the end
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain
All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain,
Still remain
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain
Did you catch when the boy is drawing a picture of him and his mom... and he puts the smile on her face? Kids want happy parents just as much as parents want happy kids. And we do it together, that's family.
