LIttle Wonders

I find myself in this most unusual space of time. After having raised 3 beautiful, self-sufficient and thriving boys and running a successful business that continues, after my departure, is nearly surreal. I have gratitude beyond for the experiences I am having now, attending my Senior year of college at 50 years old, living with my youngest son who is also in his Senior year of engineering (much more demanding than my chosen major), and having time on my hands as I have never, no never possibly could have even imagine existed! The dichotomous changes that have occurred within such a short period of time have left me to my own thoughts of "why things are as they are," and "what can be learned from all these incredible experiences I have been blessed to have?"

Last January, only 10 short months ago I posted this youtube video (worth watching and contemplating). It was sent to me via facebook from my son Tandin who when he sent it to me, we certainly did not know we would be sharing this experience together, I could not have fathomed how these "twists and turns of fate" would transpire and land me where I am today. The poignant words from this song depict the beauty and nature of how life comes full circle...

Let it go, let it roll right off your shoulder
Dont you know the hardest part is over?
Let it in, let your clarity define you
In the end we will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made in these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours still remain

Let it slide, let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine until you feel it all around you
And I dont mind if its me you need to turn to
We'll get by, its the heart that really matters in the end

All of my regret will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget the way I feel right now
In these small hours...

I came from a middle-class hard-working family. I was also rather privileged, I reflect now, truly realizing how "entitled" my ways of being and thinking really were. I now am comfortable and although resist at times the inconveniences of living in a small apartment, carrying laundry outside and down into this old frat house basement. I still find that doing dishes by hand are just a simple joy. Life is very simple. We choose our thoughts and we choose how happy or unhappy we are.