I am a risk taker, albeit maybe less now than in years past.
Life lessons do have a way of tempering spirits with the highest of highs and
lowest of lows.
At 23 I was full of passion for getting ahead in the world
of business. I met challenges with confidence and aggression. At 33 I was in
the midst of raising 3 active-gregarious boys, taking on a second business
location..and..facing internal battles inside my head about God and religion.
The faith of my youth was being challenged and I was in utter confusion. At 43
I was still in a heap of confusion over spiritual things and my feisty
enthusiasm for the almighty dollar and prestige was beginning to wane. What I
wanted most of all was peace. Peace. Just to Be.
At 48 I left everything that was familiar and secure to me
to excavate what I believed--or did not believe--and what I wanted in love. I
fully expected that this risk would pay off…and now…as I approach 53 I find
myself in a good place with much less stress than what my life was accustomed to,
and just maybe feeling I have found what I’ve been looking for. I have
simplified my life in every way, throwing out or giving away old ideas, things
and beliefs.
In my life I have experienced so many manifestations that
life comes full circle. These days most of my hours are spent working for my
son in his auto dealership and body shop. I may have been a risk taker in my
day, but T.J. is a risk taker on steroids! I now understand what my mom went through as she worked for me for 24 years. I have learned so much from my son--like I said--full circle. I have learned the greatest lessons from my 3 boys, each different, each
unique and each equally and unabashedly loved. These boys have been patient
with me and have supported me during some excruciating pain, that’s what happens when you love deeply.
So I return now, full circle, to matters of the heart and risk for what I
believed long ago, to Live, Laugh, and Love with reckless abandon. Ok- forget
the reckless.
