Like all families we have been challenged, to the very core, with life's lessons. I must admit that there were times of feeling victimized...and there were times of nearly falling to complete despair. During those dark hours, it was my 3 boys that kept me hanging on, for giving up was just NEVER an option.
It has been said that it is darkest before the dawn. And because of this darkness, when the dawn comes, the light is more beautiful, bright, and can warm the soul for eternity.
We all have poignant events that happen in our lives; my dad getting cancer 4 years ago was a huge turning point for me as well as our family. It seemed to put in motion a compelling quest for me to become a completely authentic woman in all I stood for. This quantum leap for me was something of a necessity to sort out many years of inner darkness. I had desired to overcome and understand these black days off and on my whole life; and due to many miracles involving opportunities and people coming into my life I have come to know a deep peace. I suppose the peace I feel now was something that I always felt had alluded me, but perseverance has been afforded me by my great posterity of strength and character.
Our thoughts do make up our lives. And whether you view the universe as hostile or friendly you are right! The sadness and atrocities of this world will continue for there are lessons to be learned in every hardship and challenge. And when we come to embrace and accept life just exactly as it is, resisting no more, life will be joyful!
For those who have followed my blog for the last 5 years and related with my journey, I do hope that you have gained a certain amount of understanding, as well as a greatest amount of compassion for your friends, family and lovers. These things are tender and are all the things that life is made of...
