Suffering and the Ego

Tomorrow i turn 53. Birthdays are a good time to reflect. I started writing this blog over 8 years ago. Chase, one of my boys, was on a church mission and i wanted to stay connected and share life lessons, family tales and every day epiphanies that would help him through his journey. He suffered terrible homesickness. I also hoped my other boys would read my entries, it was my way of preaching...without preaching.

In the 8 years since i began writing, life has whipped and turned, toppled and triumphed over so much life that i marvel how God works in our lives to teach us exactly what we need to learn! I have experienced the highest of highs in life; and the lowest of lows. I have been open and candid about my journey, hoping to help others in theres.

The year i turned 40 was a memorable one and i will never forget coming across this passage that had such a meaningful impact on me then..and now..

Eckhart Tolle

It's kind of a deep thought, one that requires some time to ponder. It's that last line, "until you realize it is unnecessary", that gives me such pause. Suffering in this life IS NECESSARY, and then when the ego has burned up, which means the lesson has been learned, acceptance has taken place, and humble reverence for the journey is felt, well, THEN, it IS UNNECESSARY! 

In my opinion there does seem to be a preponderance of suffering in some people's lives. Why? I have no idea? Some would say it is self-inflicted. Maybe? And some suffering just IS...and then it ISN'T. Hold on if you're suffering, because it's happening for a reason, look for the reason. And when you find it, let it go...it has served its purpose.

Dedicated to my Mom. She has suffered much, endured well and has no ego. She has been the one consistent person in my life who has cared for me during my darkest hours of suffering. She has earned her place in heaven. Thank you Mom.